Being A Little Shallow

As I get older I care more and more care about my body image, in a healthy way of course. Take for example, along with sensible intake of food, I don't mind getting drenched in sweat at the gym working out for a flatter stomach, a nice upper body (I'm giving up on my lower part, ha ha) or just to maintain the weight with cardio exercise. In fact, I felt the sexiest last summer when Rec Buddy and I conjured in daily intensive high intensity training--I want those protruded veins on my feet back!

Lately, I couldn't afford the amount of gym trips necessary to maintain the weight, much less to lose a couple of pounds away. And then I remember there is an immediate goal to attain, I need to fit better in this dress for a wedding in August. The dress as you can see is very forgiving on the lower part but not necessary on the top part.

So, yeah, I need to put myself in a mild boot camp of diet and exercise. I don't know if I can do that in the middle of everything that's going on in my life. But then, life is life. And as is, there will always be something going on with it.

Home Sweet Home

The other night, I was waiting for NY in the car and this song came up in the radio. I'm such a sucker for similar sentimental rock songs. It is always for the minor tunes first and later for the lyrics and then I find my self later tapping on the surface of my desk following the beats of the drums.

On its March 2007 edition, Rolling Stones featured a story on Daniel Levitin's study on the brain response to recorded music, Dr. Levitin wrote a book This is Your Brain on Music. For illustration, when someone listens to Mozart's, his/her primary auditory part of the brain is active. James Brown's further ignites the brain part responsible for emotion and motoric skill, while Eminem's adds up the sparks on the brain part responsible for language.

Interesting. That kinda explains my observation above.


You know I'm a dreamer but my heart's of gold
I have run away high so I won't come home low
Just when things went right
Doesnt' mean that they were always wrong
Just take this song and you will never feel left all alone

Take me to your heart
Throw me in your bones
Just one more night
And I'm coming off this long winding road

I'm on my way
I'm on my way
Home sweet home
Tonight tonight
I'm on my way
I'm on my way
Home sweet home

You know that I've seen too many romantic dreams
Up in the light falling off the silver screen
My heart is like an open book
For the whole world to read
Sometime nothing keeping me together at the seams

I'm on my way
I'm on my way
Home sweet home
Tonight Tonight
I'm on my way
Just set me free
Home sweet home

The Reply

From:	*****
Date:	Wednesday, July 4, 2007 10:50 PM
Subject:	Re: Udah Nyampe Ya?
Message:	Halo inda, sorry yah ga sempet bales imel kemaren itu.. Maklum waktu lagi liburan friendster kurang diperhatiin. Setelah baca imel elo yg sebelumnya, trus diceritain lagi sama temennya E** yg di cols, trus kemaren ketemu sama koko elo jg di kawinannya E**, skrg g ngerti deh.. Bener2 maluin deh US embassy ampir bikin salah kayak gitu... :P puji Tuhan deh minta visa semuanya lancar.. gue dah balik dari tgl 20 juni lalu. Elo minta visa di jkt tgl brp yah kemaren itu? May 21 kah? Hmm... too much serendipity sih kalo tanggalnya sama juga. hahaha.... Yah luar biasa jg yah kalo dipikir2. Dunia emang udah sempit... hahaha... Btw, salam kenal juga yah... ini gue kenalan aja belon, omongnya dah panjang gini... :P *****

S-p-u-t-t-e-r-i-n-g

I asked the advisor so that I can be trained to use that other module, the one we need for the last part of the project. This way I don't have to depend on the colleague who owns the module to work on my samples. Freedom like this is something one has to give up when one decides to work in this field profesionally.

Yesterday, I tried for the first time to do the work with the module to gather the first data point--I'm planning to have four-- for this set of paramater. And then I'm thinking of examining the second paramater with another four data points and call it a complete experiment. It needs way too much time, which I couldn't afford. Next, I will see how the other colleague is with his part of the work and go from there to make a complete device.

There are difficulties encountered when operating this module: plasma couldn't ignite, leaking valve, etc. The fact that it is operated manually can be a blessing in disguise. We spent quite a lot of money on this module and to think that we still need to control the experimental condition by hand is just beyond me. On the other hand, there is less complicated electronics and no programming to be worried about. It's all straight operation, a clean and safe one.

So, here I am on the 4th of July, working on the second data point. I'm hoping I'm improving my skill from yesterday's.

Ranting i-Products

http://cache.gizmodo.com/gadgets/images/iProduct.gif

hahahah mangkel nggak dapet iPhone pak? ato emang anti iProduct?

anything i is the anti-cool
people who want to seem like they're cool... buy iProducts
not even 3G... for 600 bucks

I don't know...Mac is worth it
iPod i anything else...I don't know

a mac isn't really an iProduct
it's just MacBook...
ada sih iMac...and it's lame

the thing is...I am partial to junk tech stuff..my future depends on the market for these things

there's a whole world other than iCrap
overpriced overhyped
shows you how far a pretty face can go in the world

what's your cellphone?
brand type etc?

the cheapest nokia
i don't know the type haha
it makes phone calls

good boy
hahahahaha

org sini gaji 3 juta HP 5 juta
8 juta

I know...how can people afford it?

kaya org penting aja...
HP pake those pen thingys

it's called stylus

yeah those things
i am the anti fancy cellphone
haha
especially for people who dont have a use for it
but u know lah...bangsamu... just to show off, flip out a Nokia N95... ooooo...aaaaaaaaaahhhh

bangsaku kan bangsa mu juga
makanya dididik itu

i'm kryptonian
:P
i just use my ear haha

parah
then use those powerful laser eyes to destroy every single overhyped cellphone

ha ha
kalo gw ada iPod...
i'd stick it to my cellphone...
with duct tape
iPhone!

OHAOHAOHAOHAOH
oh well...we know better

Sesuai Cuaca (Luar Dalam)

Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
And think of you
Caught up in circles confusion
Is nothing new

Flashback to warm nights
Almost left behind
Suitcase of memories
Time after

Sometimes you picture me
I'm walking too far ahead
You're calling to me, I can't hear
What you've said

Then you say, go slow
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds

If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you, I'll be waiting
Time after time

If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time

After my picture fades and darkness has
Turned to gray
Watching through windows you're wondering
If I'm O.K.

Secrets, stolen
from deep inside
The drum beats out of time

If you're lost you can look, and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you, I'll be waiting
Time after time

You say, go slow
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds

If you're lost you can look, and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you, I'll be waiting
Time after time

If you're lost you can look, and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you, I'll be waiting
Time after time

Picture Time

From a celebratory lunch a couple of weeks a go...


Update:
A phone interview on Tuesday with a group leader of the R&D of the said company left me with a hope for the chance for an actual on-site interview. He said to keep in touch, it is still too soon for now. We will talk again in three to five months or as soon as I am actively seeking for jobs with other companies.

Wish Me Luck

11:23:19 Jam brp inte

Jam 6 nanti, Ma

11:27:29 Oke jgn lp doa dan semoga berhasil

Ok. Thanks, Ma.

Phone Number

ooo
ok

yup that's it the highlight (of my weekend)
hahahaha

hahahahaha
sigh

oh...a guy asked for my phone number

ha
whattt

ohaohahoaohaho denger dulu
jadi tadi kan hujan...trus saya dianter NY...pas saya masuk gedung, lagi nirisin aer2 dari payung....ada yg bilang...can I borrow your umbrella?
trus dia nanya telpon biar dia bisa ngebalikin

hihih

but he did say..you have food?
ohaohaohaho
he's pretty cute
ohaohahoaohahoaho

hoahaha ok

ada2 aja ya

Nurture et Nature

This evening, I was invited to a colleague's home for dinner. While he, the wife and the other guests were conversing in their native language, I was playing with their happy-go-lucky 5-year old daughter. She asked me to read her a book. I said sure and she sat nicely on my lap. I read the story using different voices for different characters. She listened attentively. All in all, we both had a wonderful time even though I didn't enjoy the choice of book, it's an over hard use of Cinderella theme.

I'd say it's my nature to have that nurturing thing going on.

Bathroom Talk

BEHOLD!!! My Eco-Washer!!! http://www.flickr.com/photos/igdeyasa/592301899/in/set-72157600357844278/
My butt is free!
lol

lol
ada2 aja
why don't you splurge for a bidet?

bidets are so old school

nice pair, side by side...

yeah...but u have to MOVE to do the deed

add a hot tub
ambient light...background music
what's the water capacity?

it just connects to the water pipe...

do you have enough pressure?

the water pressure pushes the nozzle out

I mean to flush...what's the gpf?
gallon per flush (I'm guessing)

to flush...i dunno...
it's separate from the toilet itself... it's one with the lid
so u can install it on any toilet

oh ok
that's kinda a cool project
I guess I can try a DIY
Lowe's here I come

it's VERY easy
I installed it myself
and I'm no handyman

I will built it myself hihihihi

ha ha
it's only 60 bucks
cost u more to make it haha

yeah maybe....
it's really not that hard actually
get a tee to divide the water from that keran...a cheap plastic pipe, and a nozzle
voila

of course it's not hard to Phd chick.... for little old me...
Toto is the way to go lol

LOL

there r more advanced versions...

hmmm...what could they be

gives u a messaging spray...etc etc

ohaohaohaohaohhoaohaohaoh

not kidding
ada keypadnya

OHAHOAHOAHOOHAHOA
TOTO is a Jap right?
pantesan ada2 aja

yup

Miss You

Dear Papa,

Tonight, as I was about to go home, I received an e-mail from one of the new members of that mailing list you started a couple years back. It turned out you've set up me up as one its administrators. What should I do now? Announce to everyone about your departure and close it for good? Or maybe tell Dek Alda to maintain it? He has interests in this kind of stuff.

When I got home, I flipped on the channels, and on one, The Last Castle was played. It was your favorite movie, remember? The four of us watched it together when you and mama visited us for Ucok's graduation.

Speaking about movie, I watched all nine parts of Naga Bonar on YouTube yesterday. Until then, I had forgotten how much I loved that movie since the first time I saw it in Training twenty years ago. That Bang Naga character really reminds me of you.

Ah, Papa, I just miss you too much. Watch us from up there, will you?

Good Advices

ya sudahlah bu
time to let it go
FINALLY let it go
gak setengah2 lagi
selama ini setengah2 kan?
masih ada hope kan?

iya
makanya
ya sudahlah

huhu
*kasih sun tzu
hahahahhaha
til the next fish

seperti kata Y***
"sabarrr masih banyak ikan di laut"
hahahha

hahahahaha sama

iya sama gitu
tapi dia nambahin
"the problem is you are in a desert (CS)"

huahauhauahaua
ouch
pindah ke galveston

hahaha literally deket laut gitu?
dasar

hihih
sigh

A Business Venture?

hello

hi

at home ?

yeah...was working on request for quote
a supplier back home ask me to find these things
which are kinda impossible to get...too high a
pressure too high a temperature
I don't have enough confidence on my
self....googling doesn't really work
talking on the phone doesn't really work
crazy
and to add to it I couldn't sleep these
days...when I wake up it's already 9 *sigh*
a business like this is not my style
I'm a middle man of a middle man (of a middle
man)?

is so limiting
you are part of the network
houston bound to have people in the know

well yeah I'm calling all the Houston guys

.
.
.

Hearing your voice is like finding that global maximum among the pretentious local ones. *sigh* I (kinda) miss you.

Mens Sana in Corpore Sano

This evening, I've fallen into the alternating spell of hot and cold, but of course, I don't have the exact measure of my temperature, it just feel like it. I am guessing I am having an infection, either that or mens sana in corpore sano just proves us right.

Once Upon a Time

My life has been such a whirl wind since I saw you
I've been running around in circles in my mind
And it always seems that I'm following you girl
'Cause you take me to the places that I thought I'd never find
.
.
.
And I can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what I started fighting for
It's time to bring this ship into the shore
And throw away the oars forever

'Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what I started fightin' for
And if I have to crawl upon the floor
Come craching through your door

Baby I can't fight this feeling anymore

This is Comfort Zone

Alone in an unlit bedroom with the internet and TV on, working on the notes, perusing references for a paper. This is comfort zone.

40th Day

The wake was beautiful. Before the service, I called my mother. They were just finished with the little Mass at home. Ours started at around 10 AM. Deacon B was the celebrant, my brother on the piano, me on the First Reading and the second eulogy, my sister on the eulogy. Towards the last couple paragraphs of delivering her part of the eulogy, she cried. Everyone started to cry, during my turn to deliver my part, I cried too. Deacon B came over to hold me and then I started reading again. I can hear my brother sobbed on his spot by the piano. Oh Papa, I thought we are stronger.

My eulogy...

My sister brought a lot of wonderful memories of our father. I would like to add to the memories another dimension that made his life complete in our eyes, and hopefully in the eyes of the Lord, and how it touches us so perfectly.

My father was a person who acted on things instead of just talking about them. He never preached of how one should lead his or her life, but instead he showed it by examples. This included the practice of Christianity throughout his life.

He never proclaimed that he is a spiritual person but by looking at the way he lived his life, one can understand how faithful he was. He was not the type of person who goes to church every single possible time, but then goes about in the daily life to not practicing every single norm accepted by faith. He did quite the opposite. He wanted to show us how we should practice that one verse in Matthew, “When you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, who love to stand and pray in the synagogues and on street corners so that others may see them.” He practiced without saying it.

If he was cheated or hurt by a person, he would not act in retaliation but instead showed even more compassion towards the person. He truly gave a real life example of how one should turn the other cheek.

One specific recitation before communion, “Bapa, saya tidak pantas, Tuhan datang pada saya, tapi bersabdalah saja maka saya akan sembuh” or as we say it in English “Lord, I am not worthy to receive you, but only say the word and I shall be healed.” is the oldest and most vivid memory I had of him. One time when I was a little girl, I sat right next to my father in Mass and witnessed how he recited that particular statement with all his heart.

My father suffered a lot in his life even right to the end. He never complained or lost his faith. He was always full of hope of a better future and worked even harder to pass over the hardships. He accepted that everyone has his or her own cross in life, just as Jesus carrying His for our salvation.

I thank him for his examples. This worldly separation was so sudden and almost beyond our wildest expectation. But with the memories of him and the things he’d done for us and by the faith in God, I know we are going to be okay.

Our family would like to extend of gratitude to everyone. Your presence, words of comfort and prayers have helped us to go through this difficult time.

Not pictured: Deacon B, Kimi and the Chemistry bunch.


At the little reception, a little table with pictures of him.

Sun Tzu for Lovers

.
.

iya iya
a principle I don't have
ohaohaoaooha

quite the opposite of yours
hahahahahahha

ohaohaohaohohaohaohaho
serang dulu baru kecewa
man...I didn't learn anything from past experiences

you didnt

ohaohahoaohaho which is so stupid...because Bu, we read Sun Tzu
udah saatnya itu diterapkan hoaohaohaho

hoahaohohoa
the art of WAR
haoahoahoahoa

parah
ok deh..I have to rethink of my position

elaborate please?

ya jangan maen serang

ya makanya sun tzu dibaca lagi
kan ada tarik ulurnya
ada strateginya

ok..sif haohahohoa
ntar bisa kluar...Sun Tzu for Lovers

hoahaohaohao
lets do it bu???
lets make that book
hahahahahaha

hoaohaohaooha from us?
yang tidak punya pengalaman perang?

hiahaihia
we do
kalah terus tapi
hihihihi

ohaohaohhoahoahoa

this is too funny
hihihi

permission to blog it?

which

yg Sun Tzu aja
hoaohahoaho

hahaha
granted

hihihiihhihi hore

I Finish Putting Together the Program for Saturday

Opening Song: On Eagle’s Wings (Gather 611)

Greeting
In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit.

We gather here today in the memory of Kilian Lumban Gaol, the loving husband of Karnatje Manurung and father of Helinda Nominanda, Stephanus Axnanda, Antonia Yoyada and Nicolas Alda. He passed away 40 days ago today.
Death does not end our relationship with God. With our prayers, God will bring his soul and the souls of other faithful departed into the eternal happiness of His heavenly kingdom. Please join us in the readings and songs provided in the booklet.

Opening Prayer

God our Father, full of compassion and love,
To know you is to live and to serve you is to reign. Cleanse us from all our sins, wipe away the tears of those affected by sin and death, and let us live a new life and bring us to an everlasting life.
We make this prayer through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with You and the Holy Spirit, one God, forever and ever.
Amen.

First Reading: Wisdom 3: 1-9

The word of the Lord
Thanks be to God

Responsorial Psalm: Psalm 116: 9
I will walk in the presence of the Lord in the land of the living.

Verse 1: How gracious is the Lord, and just; our God has
compassion. The Lord protects the simple hearts; I was helpless so he saved me.

Verse 2: I trusted even when I said: ‘I am sorely afflicted,’ and
when I said in my alarm: ‘No man, no man can be trusted.’

Verse 3: O precious in the eyes of the Lord is the death of his
faithful. Your servant, Lord, your servant am I; you have loosened my bonds.


Alleluia (Gather 615)

Gospel: Luke 23: 33-43
A reading from the Holy Gospel according to Luke
Glory to you, Lord

The Gospel of the Lord
Praise to you, Lord Jesus Christ

Homily

Eulogy (by Antonia)

Our Father

General Intercessions

God of our ancestors in faith, by the covenant made on Mount Sinai You taught Your people to strengthen the bonds of family through faith, honor, and love. Look kindly upon Kilian Lumban Gaol, a father who sought to bind his children to You. Bring him to Your heavenly home where the saints dwell in blessedness and peace.
We pray to the Lord
Lord, hear our prayer

For all the deceased, look with love on our dying brothers and sisters, and make them one with Your Son in His suffering and death.
We pray to the Lord
Lord, hear our prayer

For those forgotten souls, spare them, O Lord. Let not the souls You have created be parted from You, their Creator.
We pray to the Lord
Lord, hear our prayer

For us in grief, be our refuge and comfort so that our sadness and sorrow may turn into the light and peace of Your Presence. Grant that at the end of our earthly pilgrimage we may be found in His company with our brothers and sisters.
We pray to the Lord
Lord, hear our prayer


Closing Prayer

Lord, death has hit us hard. It has made us aware of my own mortality and has challenged our faith. Yet, we hope in You. Your power over death and the rewards of your promised kingdom are the only consolations we find at this difficult time. Keep our faith and the faith of all who cared for us strong. Let us always be a source of support and comfort to one another.
In the name of the Father, and the Son, and the Holy Spirit
Amen

Closing Song: The Hand of God Shall Hold You (Gather 859)


Please join us in a little reception at the Student Center.

It's Just Too Much

internet di indon itu belon mendarah daging nak

Indon
I hate that word

ha ha
why...do u hate the work amrik?

exactly

ha ha
and yusten?

OH MAI

lol
nuyok?

you're KILLLING me!

lol
lol
lol

Silly Things Keep Happening to Me

I'd heard from Jim, I'd be glad to.

Nice. Could you send me your information, your office number and phone? And when the alarm goes off, make sure you check on the stairs to see if everybody does go down.

Sure will.

This morning I was asked to become this half of the floor's safety proctor. Why me, I wonder? Why not, as Bu Didi put it, "pria gagah perkasa berani mati"?

.
.
.
Two nights ago, I was talking to a friend. He was browsing the 'net.

"Hey, you've got a paper published here..." he showed me the website of one of the respectable journals, well at least for me.

"Are you serious? Let me see, let me see...."

It turned out the advisor sent that paper we've been working on back and forth between us for six months to a better journal than the one we were shooting for. He sent it out for publication in April and a month later it got published. No wonder I didn't receive a FW of any reviewed material to be corrected from him, the paper was published as is. The thing is he didn't even tell me it got accepted. Silly. OK, three down, one to go!
.
.
.
The advisor asked me to send an e-mail to the masses. He is desperate on keeping a class he's going to teach in the Fall. The requirement for a class to be offered is more than five students enrolled. And so far, no body registered. He put out the important points about the class and asked to cook up something out of it. Here is what I came up with...

Dear students,

Are you curious on the science and technology behind the semi*conductor world and eventually are interested on the chance to work at the industry (couples of big names are Intel, AMD, Mic*ron, IBM, Moto*rola/Free*scale, Texas Inst*rument, etc.)?

CHEN 4*7*5 Micro*electronics Pro*cess Engi*neering course (syllabus attached), offered once a year in the Fall semester, is THE way to go to learn the fundamental understanding of semiconductor processing.

Please take this time to register by the end of July to make sure you have what it takes to tackle the job interviews for the industry.

Again, this might be your last chance to take the class before graduation, so hurry up before you miss on the opportunity.

Regards,
Y** K**

When I asked him for the permission to send it out, he went like "It's very good, send it out now!" Ha ha ha.

Actually, it is to my advantage for the class not to be offered, because then the advisor will have to teach that class I should be teaching which means it will set me free. I should be setting up an evilish scheme to realize it instead of helping him. Oh well, we see how it ends.

Permisi, Bu

I was just strickened with awe, Bu. You should be a published writer!!!

kau ingin tahu kenapa aku benci jatuh cinta? karena cinta adalah kehausan yang tak punya akhir. setitik kau dapat, satu kalimat yang kau pinta. satu kalimat terpenuhi, satu paragraf kau inginkan. tak ada habisnya. seperti layaknya sastra. yang tetap ada, selama masih ada kertas dan pena. atau komputer, mungkin. dan cinta itu seperti layaknya pencuri. tak hanya hatiku saja yang ia rampas, tapi juga pikiranku. lebih dari setengahnya dia ambil, tanpa peduli bagaimana aku akan berfungsi tanpanya. cinta itu seperti biawak, dan aku anak ayam yang lucu. biawak datang mengendap, lalu menyergap. dia biarkan aku terkulai di congornya. kaki rapuhku terjulur, menendang-nendang. sia-sia. putus asa. dan akhirnya tak punya nyawa. huh, nyawa. masihkah kau punya nyawa hai diriku. adakah nyawa di dalammu jika pikiranmu saja tak dapat kau kendalikan lagi? kau seperti mayat yang lengkap anggota badannya. tapi apakah dia bernyawa? apakah dia akan mengaduh saat orang menyayat-nyayat anggota tubuhnya? ketika aku jatuh cinta, aku berikan hatiku kepadanya. lalu pikiranku, dan akhirnya nyawa. aku hanya mayat, yang penuh cinta.

Never Before

in my life, I intentionally tried to screwing up an interview, screwed it, and still practically handed the job.

No, not a "real" job. It's another teaching assistant thing for next semester. This time, it is for my own department, to become the lab instructor for a class I took on the last year of my undergraduate days (think the year 2000). Did I tell you I am never a fan of the traditional field of my own department? That is why I switched over to the current field on graduate school.

Great...just in time I was thinking it will be a smooth sailing uninterrupted working time on the stuff needed to finish up the degree. Darn advisor, darn the situation, darn, darn.

I am already planning a minimum effort on doing this job. Yes, I am.

Thinking of You

dia: Nggak semua keluarga tu kayak gitu. Nggak semua keluarga kayak keluarga kamu. Aku udah 9.5 tahun di sini, yang nelpon itu selalu mama. Aku nggak pernah ngomong ama bokap. Dia nggak sayang ama kita, we don't get along.

saya: Ah, enggak lah. Dia pasti sayang, kalo enggak nggak mungkin nyampe sini kalian. Mungkin emang cara nunjukin nya beda. He's too prideful for mushy stuff.

dia: *diem...menerawang jauh*

saya: *OK, it's time to shut my mouth up*

Hope and Despair

At times I wonder, how many "bad" things one can take in a given period of time and still keep up with the what-doesn't-kill-you-make-you-stronger mentality, in other words, to be faithful. For what I know, problems are keep coming, hopes crushed, and despair thriumped.

I am crying out loud, GIVE ME A BREAK. This is not just about me anymore, I have evolved from a selfish self-centered persona into family-centered one. Isn't that enough? What more do You want?

It's taking a lot of faith to see the good things that will come out of this situation and to keep walking towards the lights at the end of the tunnel.

Pray for me? Pray for us?

Shower

tidur nak
sudah malam

ckck
gimana ronda malam ini?
brp maling ayam?

ooo..aman aman saja

see the rock?
i see it
u got engaged without telling me?
wait...those arent ur hands

kurang ajar,..how do you know???
hahahah

u have darker skin
duh

ah sial...
well I just got back from a shower
ooo

I love fresh flowers.
The food was light and summer-ish.
What is it with edible unmentionables?
The shower party
Next in line?
The most well-mannered 2-year old

Serendipity aka The Danger of Internet

To:	*sensor*
Date:	Friday, June 8, 2007 12:19 PM
Subject:	Halo!
Message:	Hmm...this is creepy (and too much serendipity). I went home from Texas this May and applied for my F1 visa at the Jakarta embassy (where else?). The day I picked the passport, I flipped through the pages to check on the visa...and there was your H1 visa (already with a "cancelled without prejudice" stamp). I was confused and continued to flip on to the next page, and there it was my visa. Phew. So anyway, I just googled you and found your friendster. I'm hoping you got your visa stamped correctly in your passport. Salam kenal, ya! Maap kalo bikin kaget, ada orang tak dikenal ngintip-ngintip. --x

30th

Hatiku hancur mengenang dikau
Berkeping-keping jadinya...
Kini air mata jatuh bercucuran
Tiada lagi harapan

Tiada seindah waktu itu...
Dunia berseri-seri
Malam bagai siang seterang hatiku
Penuh harapan padamu

Kini hancur berderai
Kepedihan berantai
Kuncup di hatiku yang lama kusimpan
Hancur kini sebelum berkembang

Mengapa ini harus terjadi
Di tengah kebahagiaan
Ingin kurasakan lebih lama lagi
Hidup bersama denganmu...

Living With Her is A (Blessing in) Disguise

Just Stuff

I resumed Rec activity last night by taking it easy at the elliptical and the machines. I did five out of the usual seven machines, reduced the weight and number of sets. I went home and slept at 11:30. So we might say, things are getting back to normal at the Casa de la Cherry.

On the computer note, the harddrive of the computer at home is at the end of its service. chkdsk /R showed 50 % unrecoverable error. It's time to shop for a new drive. The thing is I didn't back up some of the files. I will try to slave drive it to the computer at work. All my school stuff are safely stored in multiple places, it's the pictures of the yesteryears I'm afraid to loose.

Deacon Bill might be able to serve at Papa's memorial service this June 16. We are working on the program, choosing readings, songs, etc. It will be beautiful. Mom will do the 40 harian Rosary prayers at home at the same day. [Are you having fun today, Papa?]

That's it for now.

Gosipin Kak Yada Hon

Pre Script: perbincangan maya ini sudah dirubah sedikit untuk menyelamatkan pihak terhentu (selain yang jelas-jelas lagi digosipin tentunya) dan untuk menghemat tempat.

skrg NY semangat mo kurusnya luar biasa
kan dia naksir berat ama *sensor*
hiahaihiaiha

ha yg mana

hahahaha
oh blum liat ya?

lum

hem...ntar deh saya tunjukin potonya
ganteng...beda tipe ama si *sensor*
jadi gitu deh makannya dikurangin sama kemaren olahraga

ciecie
bilang suruh cara saya

hahahhahahah
kalo pake cara stress...itu konsekensinya ada dua
bisa jadi anda..ato malah bisa jadi nambahhhh

hahahahhaha
uh no

ya gitu deh..namanya *sensor*
jd kalo cerita ttg dia...pake Mas *sensor* gitu nyebutnya
pdhl asli *sensor*
haoohahoa

hihih
gak lunch bu

hm tadi sarapan gede...kinda...NY bikin french toast

wuhu
bikin f t gimana sih

rotinya diceburin di kocokan telur
kasih garem ama nutmeg gitu di telur nya
trus digoreng...ntar taburin gula halus

k

si NY sih tadi pake Hershey's syrup segala

hahah
ok

dia sampe bilang..the ultimate death

hahahah
KATANYA DIYET??

nah itu...saya kurang mengerti...mungkin kena amnesia sesaat
amnesianya pilih2 waktu...setiap waktu makan
haoohahoa

hahahahah

Crystal Clear

It's hard to get to a regular blogging mood. There are many things I just hold for myself in lieu of the usual tendency to blurt all out in this little space. It seems that I learn to tough 'em up. It's hard, and once in a while, a weakness slips through my system...

"Hey, how are you doing? Is it getting better?" An awkward hug to follow.

That moment brought a confirmed disappointment, a realization that this person did not care. Whatever expectation I hold vaporized into the thin air right that instant. Truly, another lesson learned, to never put too much hope on something that is never going to happen.

It's crystal clear.

What Do You Think, B?

Rec buddy is the type of person who's eating on the latest fad on exercising. Gosh....

From: Rec Buddy
To: Moi

Gw defenately bakal coba ini:

http://kescott45.wordpress.com/2006/08/28/hiit-high-intensity-interval-training-explained/

From: Moi
To : Rec Buddy

Good luck! :P
Coba tolong di chronicle kan latihan2 nya.

Yesterday

In the morning...

Hey, do you want to go with me to the Mass today, Kak?

Sure!

I'll see you at 5:30 at church.

OK.

Walking home at 6:15 PM...*sigh* (Daily Mass goers congregated outside)

Poto-poto SG

Lalat impor
Bu Det capek
Pak Dodol serieus amat ama SMS nya


"Harga sewa apartmen bisa 1/3 gaji ya...ooo..." NY manggut-manggut.


Group picture

One more time

NB:
Pak Dodol...poto-poto dari kamera anda, dong.

Heylo Goodbye

Heylo Singapur....

Makasih ya udah dateng, nungguin kita yang entah di Terminal 1 apa 2, trus ngobrol2 sampe 2.5 jam sampe kalian harus bertaksi ria pulang. :)
Kita terhibur lor (lah?). Sayang nggak bisa upload poto2nya nih. Entar aja ya. Sampe ketemu dua tahun lagi (keliatannya intervalnya kayak gitu.)

Heylo Jakarta....Bye Jakarta...


Heylo Texas....We are coming home!
Nantikan artis-artis Ria Jenaka ini by midnight Friday! :D

So far away
Doesn't anybody stay in one place anymore?
It would be so fine to see your face at my door
Doesn't help to know that you're just time away
Long ago I reached for you, and there you stood
Holding you again could only do me good
How I wish I could, but you're so far away

Calling Singapore

Hello, Singapore...

We will leave from Singapore, will be landed in Changi this Thursday 9 PM your time. The flight back to LA at 7 AM the next day.

Interested on a meet up?

Do let me know!

Hello

Went to Jakarta (on Monday) for visa appointment (on Tuesday). Thank God, I got the visa.

Went to Bandung on Wednesday, met with these salt to the earth on Thursday. :)

A la Cingular pose.



Thou-shouldn't-crop-moi-from-this-picture-and-post-it-on-your-FS-or-else pose.

Some Rumbai Pictorials

B drives us around

John Deere!

Northgate!

Two nerds at their mother ship

Wimp! They installed AC units in every classroom.


To, sate si Cun!

Missing You

Dear Papa,

It's been a week since we buried you. It's been a week since I stopped crying, instead I just feel numb inside. Nothing in the world will be able to move my heart, except for the memories of you. There are many silent moments when I think of you and your antics. This is still like a dream I am hoping I am going to wake up soon.

Tonight, I am missing you so much, I cried in the corner of a room. Everyone in this house has been too tough. Is it merely on the outside, aren't we all broken inside?

So here, I'm writing this. It's been therapeutic at best.

Love,
inda

Overspoken

How did you decide to go back for good?

why? for precisely this reason
i don't want to get the phonecall you got

I'm looking at the situations over here
don't think I can survive

hey, don't judge indonesia by pekanbaru
J-town's rocking

well...

---

kepada anak yatim Kp. Baru, diharapkan segera berkumpul di Mesjid Baitul Amal

Kak, itu kita udah dipanggil tu

Ha ha ha, yuk ikut berbaris

---

Donde esta su novio?

where's my what?

your boyfriend

don't have one

ah...rogaré para usted
I will pray for you to get one soon
adios, amiga

adios, padre

---

Papa lagi kehujanan tu ya, kasihan...

Ah paling dia lagi main catur sama Tulang teman sekelasnya itu
sambil minum tuak mereka

----

kerja yg baik ya anak...ibu tidur dulu
:P

ok ok :)

I actually did some research work today!

good girl!...
life goes on right?

yup..gotta make my papa proud
later

Thank You

Requiscat in Pacem

Dear all,

My father passed away at 9:45 AM today Tuesday, May 8th.

May he rest in peace.

Wishful Thinking

I've just arrived in SG and going to Batam enroute to Pekanbaru in a few hours. Father in ICU. Keep us in your prayers?

Ika, Ade, everyone...thank you so much for everything.

Loser

Dear Daddy

halo

halo, Pa

papa kena gangguan pernapasan

ha??
knp?
parah?

karena uric acid

kok uric acid larinya ke pernapasan?
.
.
in, ini mama
iya ada peradangan di paru-paru
habis papa gitu, kalau sudah sembuh mulai ngerokok lagi
tapi sudah lumayan kok
besok pagi mau ke dokter

I am

1. worrying about the state of my father's health. He has diabetes for sixteen years, a light stroke in 2003 and other things in between. Did I tell you when I was a child, I used to check up on him at nights to see if he was breathing?
   
2. going to start researching uric acid vs. respiratory failure, and other things I can do to help, from here. This makes me want to go hoooommmeee.
   

That NY is so Funny

pengen juga org jadi kayak one of those reality show girls
drama drama drama
haha tapi kok tak ada lah susahhh

ahoaohaohohahoa kan udah banyak
drama...mencret2 (how's the dumping practice, btw?)
drama...what's up big girl
drama...bibir jontor

hahaha

drama...you should do jogging

ahhhhh nooooo
don't remind me of it
not that kind of drama
should be one of those bitchy moments drama

we're not drama prone

I know
people are not attached to us

people are repulsed from us

I know

people and us are of the same pole

haihaiahiaha
so it kinda sucks being us, huh?
Losersss with capital L
well back to studying
I'll nudge you when I'm doing my study break
buhbyeee

ok
haiahiahia

When I Grow up, I Want to be Just Like Him

"Which part of this map is Indonesia?"

The guy suddenly asked me. He had a Wikipedia map of the world on his screen. We were the only two people still perching on the computer lab at this hour of the evening.

"These parts right here." I showed him.

The map showed the countries traveled by JP II. It was color coded to indicate the number of visits the late Pope paid in each country--JP II had never been to China!. We talked a little bit about all these countries, the guy has a very decent knowledge.

Over the years, I know a little bit about the guy. We followed almost the same path. As international students, both of us have been here forever. We graduated with bachelor's degree and went to get PhD from this department.

The thing with him is that he has this starving artist mentality. Upon graduation, he turned down a well paying job in a respected industry in favor for a lower paying post doc position in the department, in which he has a greater control over a novelty research. Where will he go from here? The possibility is endless.

When I was younger, I never had a role model. These days, everyone is my role model. The guy, for instance, has a lot of qualities to be admired in a person. He's intelligent, smart, a passionate hardworker, a family guy, a religious man, and a mentally balanced person, who is also grateful and humble (or so it seems from the surface) and is not ignorant about life, people, and the world. True, part of these qualities are inherent, but he also works hard to mold himself this direction.

All in all, what a well rounded person. When I grow up, I want to be just like him.

Udah Lama Enggak

Dear R,

Tonight I went to the Rec intending to have a light exercise, what with feeling bloated and all. On TV, the Mavericks-Warriors playoff was on. Alas, it was too far from the elliptical I stationed myself, so I stuck with my reading instead. Robert Kennedy, Jr. wrote an article about falconing on Vanity Fair. An interesting reading indeed.

On occasions, I relieved my eyes from reading while moving and on one they landed on the sight of you entering the room. Gradually, my speed went from the measly 60 rpm up to the usual 80 rpm. Was it the thought of a chance of bumping to you or was it because my body finally refused to keep moving at such low speed? I don't know.

When I was done, I took a stroll out of the gym, but you were no where around. It seems you are too mobile these days after you have acquired your own car. A stick shift, I presumed.

Oh, well.

PS:
RRRRRRRRRRRRR (a la Bu Didi mode)

Thunderstorm is Coming

question.... u probably know the bible luar dalem... are these verses real? http://www.whywontgodhealamputees.com/wiki/tiki-index.php?page=
Evil-Ridiculous-Disgusting-Bible-Verses
abis gak punya bible sih...can't check :P

bentar ...you can always find one online...

Exodus 35:2 is real
"For six days work may be done, but on the seventh day you shall have a holy day, a sabbath of complete rest to the LORD; whoever does any work on it shall be put to death." ooooo...kay....
u better not be workin' on Sundays missie!
:P

:P
well they are all real
but you have to put them into context...and not taking them literally....
that's what a bible wisegirl would say
:P

:-O....well you might not think so...but there are plenty of "literalists"

yeah I know
I haven't read my bible for a long time....it's kinda hard to really "read" those
I know enough just to survive

hahaha...gue di hotel baca sedikit udah berair mata gue (ngantuk) lol

LOL
you have to read Psalm though
itu bagus buat orang sedih dan menderita
buat kalo elu lagi down

what? I never read the good things....
I just read the bad ones so I can argue about it on message boards lol

HUH

hahahahaha

Under the Weather

Dark and raining outside
Tony Bennet's on YouTube

PMS or PMDD?
It was just too depressing

Analgesic is for sissy
You are still a happy thought