Thursday, November 29, 2007

Not Just a Favorite

Waktu terus berlalu
Tanpa kusadari yang ada hanya aku dan kenangan
Masih teringat jelas
Senyum terakhir yang kau beri untukku
Tak pernah ku mencoba
Dan tak ingin ku mengisi hati ku dengan cinta yang lain
Kan kubiarkan ruang hampa di dalam hidupku

Bila aku harus mencintai dan berbagi hati itu hanya denganmu,
Namun bila kuharus tanpamu,
Akan tetap kuarungi hidup tanpa bercinta

Hanya dirimu yang pernah tenangkanku
Dalam pelukmu saat ku menangis

Element, Rahasia Hati

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Just an Old Favorite

Tonight I'm tangled in my blanket of clouds
Dreaming aloud
Things just won't do without you, matter of fact
I'm on your back, I'm on your back, I'm on your back

If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you
If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you

If you'd accept surrender, I'll give up some more
Weren't you adored
I cannot be without you, matter of fact
I'm on your back, I'm on your back, I'm on your back

If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you
If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you

Another heart is cracked in two, I'm on your back

I cannot be without you, matter of fact
I'm on your back, I'm on your back, I'm on your back

If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you
If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you
If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you

Another heart is cracked in two, I'm on your back

Foo Fighters, Walking After You, 1995

Wednesday, November 21, 2007


For whatever reason, today I dressed myself in a skirt and a cute top. I wore full make-up and (kitten) heels too. All of those because I had foreseen no need to enter the laboratory; adding into it was the holiday mood, you know, since Death-by-Pies day is approaching.

It turned out I needed to enter the laboratory, not for a plethora of measurement work but for actual hard-laboring. Bulk of it was the work with a resurrected pump and the setting up of filter for the dirty oil. Can you imagine doing those with make-up, heels and skirt? Granted that I wore the bun*ny suit and boots to cover my more-than-slightly-feminine outfit.

I also had found a working laser unit for my new experiment and have assembled a stand to hold it close to the sample.

Getting a bit nostalgic...
i am downloading kevin smith podcasts
is there a word that sounds like "demurage" and related to bank charges ?

hm? don't know
not familiar with financial term

btw..XXX was not familiar with Kevin Smith....

always relating him with Chasing Amy

the first one we saw .......

you remember!

it is hard to introduce someone to kevin smith with out getting all the reference...
yes i remember
aggie cinema

were you there with My Best Friend's Wedding?
" like College Station, Texas"

I think so....
aggie cinema

it was fun
good ol' days...

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Wish You Were Here

So, so you think you can tell
Heaven from Hell
Blue skies from pain
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?

And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange
A walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish you were here
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year
Running over the same old ground
What have you found?
The same old fears
Wish you were here

Wish You Were Here, Pink Floyd, 1975

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Hi hi hi...

panggilan dia apa sih Bu? kalo di keluarga
hmm...harusnya orangnya ramah sih
tapi agak tinggi hati

hah ini denger dari mana bu

asbun :p


dulu pernah bokap ngajarin baca nama

emang bisa ya

desperate people believe in that kind of stuff

haoahoaha yoi
anda buka tukang ramal #2 aja bu di fd

ohahoaohahoahoahohoahoahoahoa IYA

"Apakah nama anda dengan pasangan anda cocok?"
"Nama apa yang paling tepat untuk calon bayi anda?"

"screen name apa yg cocok buat anda"

"Screen name apa yang tepat untuk menarik jodoh?"



thats so funniiiyyy


Bu saya tidak menyangka anda sekreatif itu bikin screen name :p


ohaohaaohohahoa LOL!!!!




ada2 aja

iuuu saya terjijay2 sendiri nih skrg

ohaohahoaohohahoaoh SAMA

Friday, November 09, 2007

Sextum Mensem

It's past 4 AM and I couldn't shut my brain to rest. Too much grading, that's why.

Yesterday was exactly the 6th month since my father passed away. I wished I had come up with the idea to dedicate that Daily Mass for him.

So, how are you, Dear Papa? I haven't been dreaming about you these days. Instead, every time I was able to laugh at random details of this mundane life, I immediately shut myself and jettison back to the bitter reality of you being not physically here with us. I, however, am grateful to witness that we still survive without your ever persistent carnal support. Because after all, you are now residing on the deepest part of our hearts.

Gili Trawangan, Indonesia, December 2004

Wednesday, November 07, 2007


I didn't know that resume drop for that company with the info session last night already been done. I just gave him a copy of my resume (on plain copy paper instead of on resume paper). He said, he'll contact me if a spot opened up, and guess what, at 1 PM he e-mailed me for an interview spot at 3:15. I rushed home, dressed in my brown pant-suit, prepared myself as much as I could in the two hours before the interview.

The interview itself went OK, at least I got a chance to brush up my interview skill to an industry audience outside my usual targeted industry. He's promising a yes/no news nevertheless. I also picked up an application for a TA position on that department next semester. Couldn't just wait on the advisor for this kind of thing.

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

Boring Boring

In conjunction with what I said here, I found another point to list into the parallelism. During salary negotiation in job seeking process, the one who came up with a number first generally lost. Same thing with asking somebody out, when things goes south, it's probably primarily counted as the asker's lost. All these stemmed from an epiphany that I believe I innocently invited somebody to a public event, on which he probably thought it was me asking him out indirectly. Dang it. I did not have such intention. He didn't come anyway and listed the perfect excuses for it.

On the health front, I feel sleepy, bloated, and suffer from some kind of a back problem. I don't feel like staying for more work after teaching. I have an info session to attend to in a couple of minutes, which makes me automatically miss the last ToT of this year. I'm planning to go home right after.

Today also, we (J and I) played human relation management on a group in class. I can never be to hard on these students. It's just my nature. We'll see if the management style we came up with for the three group members work perfectly. It's nice when your school can accommodate for your learning disability.

Monday, November 05, 2007

Because Seriously This Blog Should Be Titled "For Boys and Research Only"

Today, J was on his good mood. We resumed talking for hours like we usually did the first month of the semester. It was always about our weekend and branched out from there. Today the topics I could remember on top of my head were student bon*fire, TV shows, movies, jewelries, overseas flights, and Mass. In all honesty, I don't think there's a short supply of conversation materials with him.

He listened on my stories, at one time pointed to broken stitches in my jeans, poked me multiple times at multiple location (ehm, not comfortable typing that last part out, but, oh well).

"I got a new bed..." his eyes sparkled, what I assumed, flirtatiously.

"Ah, what kind? A king, queen? It must've cost a lot. When I went to Oregon, that was the best sleep of my life."

"Queen. 900 $ Simmons. But I'm no paying it. You should try sleeping on my bed."

Yeah, I enjoy these Monday and Tuesday moments with him. But that's it, I've learned my lessons. He's Just Not That Into You.

Sunday, November 04, 2007


this is so random
you know Bee Movie?


I planned to watch it Friday night
on Friday afternoon, a bee landed on me

gigit gak

fortunately no....or was it unfortunate? If I got stung...I would need to stuff something with tissue to keep them in balance



it landed there?

gila ya? gede lagi
I remember Indonesian bee to be this teeny tiny thing


hahaha I hope this size deficiency is not generalized to everything else


aduh aduh baru juga ke gereja...what's up with me and my...

we are a smaller race...height and probably everything else
it would be weird if asians are shorter but have larger...that


ah forgot the WITA deal


lucky you didn't move to Papua or somewhere

no...can't...they don't have large enough kotekas

...and to think I was pulled in the last minute as an Eucharistic Minister (EM) today. Last minute as in, the communion rail already started. MM handed me a special necklace they use for EM and escorted me to get a cup from Fr. D at the altar.

My sister and I made Bakso for International Mass reception, by made I mean we mixed chicken broth, some shallots, Asian-store-bought meatballs and rice noodles together. We also made Es Campur. The last was definitely a hit (among the Philipinos most of all, they came for seconds!!!).

Also, I spent a nice afternoon with my dearest friends GSA and ANB at the mall and I'm not a mall person. :)