Friday, December 05, 2008


I came home today from work and some grocery shopping. I called the BF as I put stuff away. It's his birthday today and our two best friends were throwing him a birthday dinner. In the middle of the call Mom was calling me on the other line. I promised to call the BF again later. Mom and I talked as I heat up my dinner.

We couldn't help but discussing the family's financial situation these days. Things are pretty tight since Dad passed away. And now that I am working, there is not much changing in term of my contribution to our family. See, in numbers, my income is considerably high, but after factoring in CA living cost, car payment, and that single person income tax bracket, there is really not much left to save. A little over broke, that's what they called it.

Right now, my financial objective is to acquire enough saving that will cover three months of living expense. And what I experience now is that even that small objective is already hard to attain. It definitely requires some kind of magic to be able to afford owning a place of my own in here while in the same time building some investment portfolio for the future, and don't forget a wedding, hopefully, sometime in the near future.

I continue the habit of budgeting and projecting how much I can save over a period of time with the help of a simple spreadsheet. I consulted the spreadsheet religiously. Something funny happened tonight as I was playing a little forensic
accountant to locate some essential amount of money allegedly missing from my bank accounts. Simply, I tried to balance the expenses and the income. I was in a panic attack thinking that I overspent in hindsight or that maybe somebody broke into my
accounts again. I discovered that it was a typo in one of the numbers that caused such a commotion. By the time I discovered it, my dinner was already cold again.

Money it's not everything one would say. I don't totally buy that. Who am I gonna turn into to support the family and myself once I lose my income? We are not talking lavish lifestyle, just enough to get by. I am not in need of having a fancy car and clothing or other luxury items. I just need some security that I have something liquid in possession to cover a reasonable life span.

Great, it's the weekend, I can afford some insomniac moments thinking about the economy and my personal finance. I am just hoping I am walking towards the light. I am also glad that the BF has a similar financial attitude as myself. In this case,
I'd say a team of two is better than flying solo.

Happy Birthday again, Babe. I was thinking to dedicate a piece here for you today before this money thing took over. After all, you are one of the most important people in my life these day. I hope the card and the CD arrived Monday, a little late, three days after your actual birthday.

And whenever I am missing you so much, I just have to relive the momentous occasions such as our first activity together two days after your birthday last year.

"It wasn't a date", I insisted months after.
"Hey, come on, what guy would wanna go watching a play with a girl she is not even a friend first? Totally, a date," you said.

A date or not, it is one of my favorite things to daydream about us. You do make me happy.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Homily and OLOP

Another thing I miss about College Station, the other being working out at the Rec Center, is attending mass St. Mary's. I haven't felt at home in the many Catholic churches I have been to here and around town. One in particular is the popular OLOP. The feeling that I am merely a visitor as opposed to a parishioner has nothing to do with the two incidents there in which a man unsolicited giving me a pamphlet on dressing Marianly, one in the middle of Mass, one at the parking lot after. It is more about the homily.

To me the homily is one the most anticipated parts of Mass. All these times I haven't been able to get the gist of the homilies on the Masses offered at OLOP with different priest at different times. I'd say this is largely due to the state of the sound system which acoustic is probably affected, to my guess, by the structure of the church building itself. Second, it might be due to do with the way the sermon is presented. Back in St. Mary's, sermons were presented in a way that they were easy to comprehend that they almost certain touched bases every time. Although, at the OLOP cases, I couldn't really certain if each and every sermons were 'too heavy' as I couldn't hear it clearly every time.

This next time, I will try to sit closer to the altar and gather up an extra focus more during the sermon. All those yoga practices should be useful then.

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Shutdown Rambles

So, inline with the last post, the company exercised the first of the shutdowns in Q1 2009 effective this Monday. This means yours truly have nine days of Thanksgiving break, except that she couldn't afford to change her plane ticket to go back to dear ol' CS from the original day of Thanksgiving to this weekeend. What a girl to do to cover the five days in between? Well, having fun in her own way, off course.

1. Sleeping in. She forgot how much she loves sleep. She got pretty good at brushing up her old skill as she woke up a minute past noon today.

2. Shopping. She has a couple of shopping list to do since discovering Trader Joe's and Ranch 99 (oh and don't forget the many Goodwill around towns). She's also in search for a good book for the BF's nephew that she adores so much. The boy is cute and well too smart for his seven years of age.

3. Watching free movies on demand. She discovered this Comcast feature a while ago and has been using it effectively almost every weekend. Last night only, she managed to watch two of the agent Double O Seven's in HD, one with Mr. Connery and one with Mr. Moore. Delicious.

4. Exercising. Two times a day, in the morning for the usual aerobics and weight exercises, and at 6:30 PM with the free class at the apartment's work out center.

5. Cleaning up and organizing. The apartment and her work notebook. Where is that damn data cable, anyway. She needs to transfer the pictures from the cellphones in a more affordable way.

What she's not doing:

1. Cooking "elaborate" meals. She just need to use up the stuff in the fridge anyway.

2. Going to a birthday party at some club. First, she didn't feel like dressing up, and there is a dress code in which she doesn't have a thing handy to dress with. Second, she's not sure if the birthday girl is the girl she knows, name confusion that is. She could've picked up the phone and called someone but, third, hmm, she had her share of fun Friday with the free ticket to an MMA event. It was on the corporate suite with free beers, pizza, wings, some cookies. More on this and the "after party" after.

What she's dreaming of:
1. She could afford a camera. A DSLR one, not another Point and Shoot. Maybe next year when the financial situation is a little bit better?

2. This is craziness talking. But yeah, she wanted to be in a nuptial relationship with the BF sometime in the future--and by the future, she means by the end of next year. Again, can she/they afford it? And by afford, she means mentally, logistically and financially.

See, she's still the economical (read: penny-pinching) homebody (read: anti-social) girl she's always been. And so the end of the ramblings.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Bowing Head

Job security is everyone's mind, including yours truly. We can smell it, it's right in front of us. What with the continuously plunging single digit stock, the shut-downs, and the downsizing, all in line with the plan to save those many million dollars in the company's operating cost. So help us, God.

Sunday, November 16, 2008


It's been a while since I've been involved in any type of volunteering work. The last time was visiting a retirement community back in good ol' CS. This Saturday, I went with a group of church friends to Oakland to work at a kitchen for the needy. We served gumbo with wild rice with a side of salad and bread, and donut or cake for dessert. If nothing else, the experience made me realize that we sometime forgot how grateful we are to be blessed with the ability to provide for ourselves. I like this kind of volunteering and have been considering doing it more frequently, at least once a month.

Serving the gumbo made me crave for a homemade one for dinner. I then called the BF for ingredients list and recipe. He used to work for a seafood place in his hometown during his high school years and might know a thing or to about making a perfect gumbo. In the middle of my cooking preparation, the BF texted me that he too was craving for some. We ended up cooking gumbo at the same time but 1000 miles away. Through out the cooking, we updated each other's tribulation: the roux took too long, mine is not dark enough, etc. I finished first and was planning to wait until he's done with his so we can eat the gumbo at the same time but my hunger took over. When he's done with the cooking he called me and we talked for more than an hour. It was just the cutest date this LDR had so far.

This afternoon, I went to a Mass said in my native language in a Mission church 20 something miles away from my place. The Mass was a celebration of the founding of the bay area Indonesian Catholic community as well as for an early Thanksgiving celebration. There was some kind of a worship dance performed in the middle of Mass. I'm not too sure what my feeling was about the appropriateness of this kind of activity. But at least the dance, the costume and the music were moderate enough to tone the effect down. Another worship activity was presented some time after. This time was in the form of a ballet performance. Needless to say, that for sure should be put into another time and place.

All in all, this weekend has been effective. I am looking forward for Monday. I am wondering how many people can say that they are looking forward for Mondays.

Friday, November 14, 2008

New Beginning?

I thought I should start writing again. I think it is important to continue to chronicle my life now that I have moved to a new place, living on my own, started a new job, and trying to work out a long distance relationship (not just between the two of us but among the extended families). In short, this is still about the juggling of life but with new sets of problems. The ones associated with becoming a responsible adult. Who would have thought I will be experiencing all of these.

I got everything I have dreamed of in life: health, a degree(s), a job, a meaningful relationship. For those I am thankful. I thought those are all I had ever wanted and then I will finally be happy.

Truth is I find it hard to fall a sleep most nights. It has to do with aspirations such as that I want to do more with my life, I want to learn to be grateful, I want to move on to the next step on the relationship, I want to build a solid financial standing, I want to be happy, if not happier.

So I am throwing this to you guys out there. Is it too much to be wanting more? Or are we just... human?

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Hair Saga, Still (Bored at Work)

To: bwn####@chemail.****.***
Subject: Hair Saga, Still (Bored at Work)

Wassap BF...

Adding to the ritual I have to make every morning, i.e., what stuff to wear to work, now I have to wash and flat iron the damn hair every single day. Shorter hair should make life simpler, I don't know how mine is such a trouble. I bring comb with me to work now and let's just say, I put a good use of any reflecting surface. Geez. And don't get me started on how it broke my heart. I cringed and shrieked a lot everytime the scissors got near my head. What can I say. I miss my long hair.

Anyway, I am closing this e-mail with a part of the lyrics of a song you compiled on my CD. I hope that it is still the case with you.

They say that time takes its toll on a body
Makes the young girls brown hair turn grey
But honey, I dont care, Im not in love with your hair
And if it all fell out well I'd love you anyway

Monday, October 20, 2008

Is it hormonal or is it real?

Sometimes I feel you never love me as much as I love you. Sigh.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Touchy Feely

Got a birthday card from the boyfriend in the mail on Friday. I'm amazed on how good card writers/designers are these days.

It says on the front part,
It's the simple times,
when we're talking about
anything or everything...
It's the times
we understand each other
even when no words
are spoken at all

and on the folded back part it says
It's the smiles, the laughs,
the warm hugs
and the sweet kisses,
or the joy
of just being together...
and finally on the inside page it says
These are the things
that really matter to me.
These are the special things
that remind me that life
is better in so many ways
because of you.

I'm so glad you're part of my life.

Happy Birthday.

You got me, Babe.

Sunday, August 31, 2008

Hello, Anyone Here?

Hey, how's thing with the world? I am alive, and hopefully kicking, at the new place.

The boyfriend and I blogged our workout stuff here.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008


Per tradition.

So tomorrow is THE day. The culmination point of things I have done about 1/3 of my life so far. At this point, I am trying to keep the sanity intact while reading more background material.

Things I've done pertaining to the defense:

Placing order for a sandwich tray at HEB
Printing slide handouts and paperworks
Emailing committee a reminder to show up tomorrow
Working on last minute slide polishing
Sending defense announcement to the department

Things to do still:
Practice in full
Read more background
Buy little bit of veggies, fruits, desserts, drinks, and utensils (It is as 12 on the dot tomorrow afternoon)

I wish my father were still with us when this day came.

Wish me luck, dear friends, and pray for my poor soul.

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

Dearest Mr. Walker

If you're reading this, I'd like to welcome you to this pseudonistic little corner of mine, which unsurprisingly resides in the 'net where the whole world could see. *gasp*

Happy first lunaversarry (again).

'Cool word, at first, I thought, it referred to us being "looney".' You texted back last night.

A part of me had died from that response. But then I realized, we have never been into the yucky romantic stuff. So, all is well again. [Edited to add: You are an etymology wizard! I didn't realize 'looney' and 'luna' are indeed related. And you're correct, the word might as well describe us.]

As you might find out by now, I am better with songs and lyrics. You don't want to know what was my first choice to commemorate the occasion. Go ahead, click on the link....Yup, yeah, too "heavy". So, here is one from a favorite band of ours, what other than The Eagles. I'd say if nothing else the song is a tad more appropriate.

Sitting by a foggy window
Staring at the pouring rain
Falling down like lonely teardrops
Memories of love in vain
These cloudy days, make you wanna cry
It breaks your heart when someone leaves and you don’t know why

I can see that you’ve been hurting, baby I’ve been lonely too
I’ve been out here lost and searching, looking for a girl like you
Now I believe the sun is gonna shine
Don’t you be afraid to love again, put your hand in mine…

Baby, I would never make you cry
I would never make you blue
I would never let you down
I would never be untrue

I know a place where we can go where true love always stays
There’s no more stormy nights, no more cloudy days

I believe in second chances
I believe in angels, too
I believe in new romances
Baby, I believe in you
These cloudy days are coming to an end
And you don’t have to be afraid to fall in love again

Baby, I would never make you cry
I would never make you blue
I would never turn away
I would never be untrue
I know a place where we can go where true love always stays
There’s no more stormy nights, no more cloudy days

I know it's been only a shortwhile but I'm contempt content with you and your optimistic nature, your sense of humor, and your --uhm, on the second thought, I'm pleading the Fifth on that certain characteristics of yours. All in all, they balance your propensity for R-OH, your island time, and your liking on that one Sublime song. Hey, I gotta put something negative on the list, LOL. It's really not that bad for all the topsi-turvydom it has caused, I mean, one day all the planets in my life were in a grand alignment, then came you.

Lastly, I couldn't help but putting our names to our faces. Hope you don't mind.
Mar 08 041



Thursday, March 06, 2008

State of Things

Ade's writing my bio...hihihi...I have a personal biographer!

Phone interview today with S*h*a*r*p L*a*b of A*m*e*r*i*c*a, they offered an on-site interview next week!

My goodness....deadline is approaching...dissertation (submit to committee members first week of April)...defense (April 23)

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

The "Proposal"

The first of March, we were at our pub playing a weekly trivia quiz against other teams. Our team just consisted of the two of us. Sometime in the middle of the rounds, he stared at mid-air smiling.

"Why are you smiling? At nothing again?"

"I am content..."

"You are happy?"

" girl asks me out, I'm playing trivia with her at my favorite pub, life is beautiful...Those are grounds for being happy, right?"

"Hmm...yeah, I guess...." I couldn't come up with any other response. He just called me "my girl" for Pete's sake. It sent a butterfly in my stomach. I smiled at him.

"What?" He asked

"Well...this is like that answer you put on that questionnaire I gave you.... 'Where do you wish you were right now' and your answer was 'This is a superfluous question.'"

"Ha ha...I like my answer. You'd better keep that questionnaire, because there might be no one else that will need to fill it."

"I do keep it. I keep everything..."

A couple hours later, I popped him what was on my mind....

"You're calling me a girlfriend?"

"Yes...aren't we? We were already like that since last weekend...So, yeah we are officially a bf/gf now. I mean we've been going out for months, I don't know what will happen in the future, I am happy with what we have now, I care about you, and I think you're a prospect."

I didn't even remember what my response to those bombardments. There are no cheesy I-love- you's, it is an understanding, I suppose.

I'm hoping he's the one.

Thursday, February 28, 2008

The Things I Said

Over the performances from international students organizations yesterday, among others was the Mexican Students Association. Oh, the lively yell and oration. Viva...! Viva...!

Wow, it feels as if they are going to start a revolution! I am going to run for my life...

You are bad! LOL...Why don't start yelling yarriba! yarriba! and start shooting gun in the air...


Next was the performance from Malaysia, specifically, a one-man show, the guy is from the Borneo part of the country.

You know, the native people in that island was still practicing head hunting until recently. Headhunters, right, that's what they call it.

Yeah..headhunters, you're so bad. First, Mexicans were going to start a revolution, now the Malaysians are headhunters!


And then it was the Columbian's turn.

...and the Columbians are...drug dealers...(whispering on his ears)

I can't imagine these are all coming from you! Stereotyping....


And finally, on the walk home...

So, what are Indonesians?

We are just plain crazy.

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Not Wearing Black

Good morning (I'd like to start the post just like Rev. Run at the end of his Run's House show, he he he).

Happy Valentine to all of you!

Unlike the yesteryears of my far-from-baneful existence, I will have a dinner date tonight, on Valentine's Day! Am I excited? Yes. I usually give NY chocolate this time of year--I am not sure if she ever gave me any in return. So for sure it's a big leap from there.

One thing though, I don't know where this so-called relationship is going. My hunch is that we both are just trying to have fun and to be polite to each other so not to break it up. Come to thing of it, there's nothing to break anyway. Do I know him more? Not really...Does he know me more? Maybe...This is getting depressing. Is this what you called building a relationship?

On that note, have merry happy Valentine's!

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

and I Don't Even Know His Favorite Color

Oh! I forgot to ask you for going out on Thursday.


Yeah, it's Valentine!

Oh...ha...I forgot all about that. Yes, I would. But I have a meeting maybe till like 9. Do you mind if we go that late?

Yeah, no problem. I think [insert restaurant name] they open that late.
Are you going to be ready by 9?

I don't know....maybe it'll be done by 9, but I'm not sure.

OK, let's tentatively make that a plan.

Well if not, there's always IHOP or Denny's..ha ha...

*crickets chirp*

If you want we can also watch a play on's the same play that we went to last time. I know the lead actress. She and her husband, we are kinda are in a soccer club.

That'll be fun. We should get her flowers or something...

OK, I'll see you..he kissed me softly


Thursday, February 07, 2008

Love is in the Air

don't you want to maximize waking hours?

i would if if i had something to do haha

you know...daydreaming about her

ha ha
i love her life....spirit
in my opinion...perfection



like a photoelectron..she got excited and gives out luminous photon

shutup nerd

this nerd gave you the Valentine idea

yes you did

dah ah...molor dulu...daydreaming


Sunday, February 03, 2008

Long Update

Dissertation update:
I am about a week late on the schedule. I should've finished Chapter II this weekend which contains the bulk of experimental method and background theory behind the method. It just taking too long because I am sort of being idealist about stuff. I view writing this chapter (and the rest of the chapters for that matter) as a part of interviewing preparation more than anything else.

I can sort of copy/paste materials from my papers for the cream of the dissertation: Chapter III, IV, V, and maybe VI. Each chapter will have approximately two weeks editing time and any other necessary supported measurement or what not dedicated for it. I'll scoop in Chapter I, which is the Introduction, and Chapter VII which is the Conclusion somehow in the middle of this craziness. I am planning to give the finished product to the advisor by April 4th, and to the rest of the committee members by April 9. That leaves me two weeks for working on the slides and what not. Time really flies when you break it down like that.

Job searching update:
It still sucks. I haven't heard any interview opportunity for an industrial position, from my job hunting sources: school's career center, the internet, the department, etc. Until about Tuesday last week when an opportunity presented itself to me. It is for a post-doc at the next door department. I'm pretty heaved about it. Money is for sure not as lucrative as a spot in the industry, but future careers in academia or industry are sort of opened smoothly through it. We'll see, I am not even sure I got in, but apparently they kinda want me bad.

Some semblance of a romance update:
B' asked me to watch a movie with him. "What kind?" I said, I read him the list of the website. "Pick a good one for date movie," he said. I was pretty confused about this. "Are we dating now? Or is it the type of movie you want to watch?" I wish I had the courage to ask. LOL.

The day of the date, he called me in with an invitation to dinner at his friends' before the movie. During the dinner the friend said something to him that sounded similar to this. "I forgot that you are on a date tonight." "Now you make me look bad in front of her," he said. So, yeah, there was my confirmation. We really were on a date. I should've picked it from the way he dressed that night.

His friends, a pair of husband-wife, were really welcoming, nice, and imposing. They are about two-three years younger than me. The husband went I-hope-you'll-be-a-regular here several times, referring to me hanging out with them. The wife went it's-nice-to-finally-have-a-girl-to-talk-to. It seems they have higher faith in this relationship than me. Honestly, I don't even know what B' sees in me. We haven't really talked all that much, we haven't really cross-assessed (mentally or other-ly speaking) each other that much. He amazed me though, by remembering the detail of our first going out, even the shoes I wore. "They are pointy, they are green, like an elf shoes..." "You remember all that...I'm blushing now." "Don't be...they are cute." Shoes fetish alert? j/k.

We went to watch the movie. There were some sort of intimacy here and there, proper hand placements and all, which I didn't object to. We went to his apartment afterward, he made us Mudslides and we sat by the pool. A couple of people with Indian background came down carrying cakes and candles, apparently for a surprise birthday party. I asked B' when is his birthday. "The day I defended was my birthday. And we went to that play that Friday." "Oww...why you didn't tell me that?" "It was an early stage for us, I didn't want to bother you, besides I have the thesis to work on, I didn't prepare for anything." Early stage, huh. Hmm..he's been thinking about that night and about us since. I am scared now.

He walked me home after, hugged me goodnight, and said he had a good time. There were future plans to movies, to basketball games. So yeah, it's not too far fetched to say I'm kinda dating him. Exclusively or not, either way I have to figure out how to act on this (and also on the termination of J-gate, if there is ever a J-gate. It wouldn't be fair to him otherwise). I am so clueless every time and blaming it totally on being a "late bloomer". So help me God. In the moment of awkwardness during that hug, I kinda kissed him on the cheek. LOL. I feel I need a confession now.

The End

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Let Me Bask on the Lime Light

Turned out he gave two more DVDs of his favorite movies. And today...

"Hey.." I finally found him in his office. He was working on his data. Instead of the DVDs like last time, he gave me two books, The Prince and James Cavell's translation of Sun Tzu.

"I don't know when I can give them back to you," I thought he was lending me the books.

"They are yours."

I blushed. "Oh...that's so sweet," and without any reservation, I hugged him sideways. He was sitting, I was standing, otherwise, the guy was just too tall to be hugged in a proper manner. He reciprocated to pull me even tighter.

Ah, the joy. I want need more of it.

Tuesday, January 29, 2008


The day was supposed to be started with a quick drive through at a favorite snack place and then we would be on our merry way to H-town. What were we thinking. It was already pass 12 PM.

"Can I have five of the iced nuts and one of the cream filled, please."

"Mam, we don't have anymore of the iced nuts, in fact we barely have anything now. You're welcome to come inside to look."

"Okay then, I will have five of those, and a chocolate milk, and two waters, please."

"Dollar even."

"Are you sure?" I motioned to the milk, the donuts and the water. I should've wiped them clean.
Reason for the trip: bridesmaid dresses shopping. Our beautiful bride-to-be had carefully made appointments at two different bridal establishments, a big national chain over on Westheimer and an independent one in Chinatown. Either way, we were never far from the center of culinary heaven that is H-town.

Big national chain has advantage in the size and variety of selections, not so much on quality. The mom-and-pop offers better style. It's probably not too far fetched to say that these bridal businesses seem to cater to statistics (7.5 marriage : 3.8 divorce per 1000 population). A divorce-rate limited!

Needless to say, the three of us were this close from turning into bridesmaidzillas. Sometimes watching too much TLC is not good for your soul. The consensus was a halter neck for one (in the hope to alleviate a certain booby-ness situation), tube dress for the petite one, and a v-neck for another. Against all precarious notions, we settled on dresses with the exact same style, and the oohs and the ahhs commencing. Until somebody brought up the style of the reception which in the end resulted in a unanimous voted against the dress. This, of course, warrants for (hopefully) another shopping trip. LOL.

I am glad the bride-to-be has ordered hers.

Sunday, January 27, 2008

The Train Has Left the Station


you know what J, I was just thinking

what u thinking girl

like the playa...we have the same interest on musics, books, sports, topics for discussion, etc...
even chocolate!
so I thought I found the guy version of me...a soul mate...

dont get ur hopes too high yet
the fall will be higher
and besides everybody always say that when u are starting to know each other, the puppy love

well yes..that exactly somehow my point
you don't need someone to have the same interests
it takes the mystery out of the relationship...the fun is actually less...the exploration is dull
no I dont have hopes on is more like a spur of the moment...the joy of bumping into someone who can have the same interests as me...
is it weird thinking?

sorry was in wece
and talking to mom too the same time?

noooooooooooooooooooo of course
was cleaning something in restroom

hhi ok

u puppy in lov

hm...never met someone like before...that's just one in a million chance

everybody always say that

ok..I never said it before

oh well

yeah..oh well...
if it wasnt meant to be it wasnt meant to be
what do we know right
any kino from u?
ur fault

I'm just not used to it..

get used to it
or the train will leave
for good
or it might have left long time ago


turn and look behind u
do u see it?

dang double dang

its gone

and it was a bullet train too
no wonder I missed it
I'm accustomed to the coal powered one

Friday, January 25, 2008

Update (permisi ya Bu)

gave the book to J

"'s for you"

"to read?"

"yeah....I thought I got to repay you somehow for those DVDs rentals, past and future"



trus ngomongin Sun Tzu, Machiaevelli...


"I don't know, but most people, when they read Sun Tzu, they read Machiavelli too, and this that's haven't got a copy right?"

"no, I haven't. when I went to Delaware for that co-op, I went to a bookstore and spent almost 200 $ on their classic section. Count of Monte Cristo, War and Peace, Sun Tzu, The Prince..."

"wait a minute, they categorize it that way? How's Monte Cristo in the book? I know their movie adaption supposed to be suck..."

trus saya bilang saya blum baca Machiavelli...


dia bilang ya udah ntar dia bawain

movie AND book buddy
ah so familiar
TOO familiar

"hey...I'm uploading my list of movies...I'll send it you so you can choose whatever movie you want next"
bentar lagi music juga bu
dia buka excel file...we looked through it...I shrieked...
"I want Newsradio!!"
gile ini apal semua conversationnya


whats newsradiooo i dont even kno

"Do you like Newsradio? Man, if you like it, you're gonna love The you have the portable harddrive..cause I have both with me..."
trus saya ambil deh..trus dia transfer Newsradio & The Office to my harddrive

Newsradio is a very funny sitcom situated at a newsradio office...very very favorite..I love all the cast members


and he showed me a clip from the Office and that I should start watching Arrested Development

parah....about music
well, his winamp was playing Pink Floyd
..there you go...another sigh


oh well...
wonder if he ever sees me in a different way..


the guy is very popular with girls, Bu
tadi saya lagi ngomong ama dia gitu..masak ada dua cewek krucil masuk (anak2 MS baru mulai semester kemaren)
langsung aja gitu invading his space...buka2 laci...ngomong2

i sense cynicism
i smell blood



"Btw, I think I misunderstood you is not just to read, it is to own. Enjoy!"

"OH! Thanks, I really appreciate it. I will probably finish it this weekend. Hope you enjoy the shows. I will try and remember the movies for you, if there are any others."

Monday, January 21, 2008

Playa Wannabe

Case A.
Just when I didn't sit by the phone, a VIC (very important call) came. It was J! *sigh* Maybe next time.

Case B.
B' asked me out lunch tomorrow and bingo Wednesday night...
bingo group thing, lunch bedua aja...
is it bad to go with this while I'm "plotting" something for J?

have fun

ok...thank you

you're wecome, regards - satan

ADUHHH yang bener dong PAAK
gue nggak enakk nih

it's ok

I thought so...toh kita nggak ada bilang exclusivity, right?

santai aja dulu


Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Wondering Too
there are still 1500 members of that church... :P

But the results of a court-ordered paternity test revealed in October that Paulk is the biological father of his brother's son, D.E. Paulk, who is now head pastor at the church. <--- !!!

there are still 1500 members of that church <== this is even weirder

ha ha
kok bisa sih disuruh paternity test ttg anak adeknya?
this will make a good Law & Order episode

maybe all sorts of lawsuit left and right
brothernya curiga kali
i'm willing to bet 90% of pastors have their own way of releasing sexual tension
it's just not natural...

you mean Catholic priests?

yeah that's what i meant
ha ha

yeah...I will inquire about this during confession...btw, do you...

yeah ask that

I will

bener ya tanyain

or I'll search priests blogs...see if they talk about that kind of stuff

please report back

ok...this will take time
I'll probably get thrown into purgatory forever, if not straight to hell

Thursday, January 10, 2008

The Closest Things to a

Scene on My Best's Friend Wedding

Reference Scene

George Downes: Michael's chasing Kimmy?
Julianne Potter: Yes!
George Downes: You're chasing Michael?
Julianne Potter: YES!
George Downes: Who's chasing you... nobody, get it? There's your answer. It's Kimmy.

Actual Scenes

X = the troubled female
J = member of the opposite sex X digs
B' = member of the opposite sex X went on an alleged "date" with
M = female friend of X

Situation 1:
X and M were on a line for a free lunch
B' and J were also on the same line, a person apart from X and M
X and M were talking
B' saw X and nodded acknowledgedly, might be wanting to strike a small conversation
X and M still talking to each other
X finally stroke a conversation with B'
B', X, and M immediately were in a group conversation
When B' and M talked with each other, X sneakily stroke a conversation with J, involving a high five
B' eagerly joined on the conversation

Situation 2:
X and M sat together at the lunch
B' and J went their separate ways
After lunch J suddenly came over and sat beside X (he would stay until the end of the day)
B' still sat at his seat
J and X involved in a very moving conversation about everything and nothing
X thought she saw B' looking at her and J several times

With those situations firmly recorded on her mind, X is now confused on who is "chasing" who.

--> denotes one-way "chasing"
<--> denotes mutual

1. B'-->X-->J (who is J "chasing"? Answer: Tall, skinny, curly, dark-haired hottie)
2. B'--> J or vice versa (LOL, Bu Didi, you're too funny!)
3. J<-->X
4. X--> J or B' (shooting-for-the-star-landing-on-a-moon mentality)

1, 2, and 3 are highly unlikely. 4 is what's really happening.

And I'm officially stressed out I came up with the silliest post. I've started to write my dissertation officially yesterday. We'll see how I survive.

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

Calling You to See

After Hate Me, another song that I forgot the title of, and this song, I have to start seriously listening to Blue October.

There's something that I can't quite explain
I'm so in love with you - you'll never take that away
And if I've said a hundred times before,
Expect a thousand more - you'll never take that away

Well, expect me to be calling you to see if you're okay when I'm not around
Asking if you love me; I love the way you make it sound
Calling you to see
Do I try too hard to make you smile? To make us smile?

Well, I will keep calling you to see
If you're sleeping, are you dreaming?
If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me?
I can't believe you actually picked me

I thought that the world had lost its sway (It's so hard sometimes)
Then I fell in love with you (Then came you. Then came you)
And you took that away (Its not so difficult. The world is not so difficult)
You take away the old, show me the new

And I feel like I can fly when I stand next to you.
So while I'm on this phone, a hundred miles from home,
I'll take the words you gave, and send them back to you

I only want to see if you're okay when I'm not around
Asking if you love me; I love the way you make it sound
Calling you to see
Do I try too hard to make you smile? To make us smile?

Well, I will keep calling you to see
If you're sleeping, are you dreaming?
If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me?
I can't believe you actually picked me

Well, I will keep calling you to see
If you're sleeping, are you dreaming?
If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me?
I can't believe you actually picked me

Well, I will keep calling you to see
If you're sleeping, are you dreaming?
If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me?
I can't believe you actually picked me

Oh ohh oh oh, oh oh oh uh oh, uh oh, uh oh oh oh
Oh ohh oh oh, oh oh oh uh oh, uh oh, uh oh oh oh
Oh ohh oh oh, oh oh oh uh oh, uh oh, uh oh oh oh
Oh ohh oh oh, oh oh oh uh oh, uh oh, uh oh oh oh

Blue October, Calling You

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

Scary and Gross?

my dream last night was so scary

do tell me

I was suddenly 9-month pregnant and was on these 5-minute contractions...ready to give birth...and I just realized I hadn't taken any of the birth preparation class or what not...and I didn't remember there's a husband around, only me and my mother

u crazy
damn u
get a bfriend

that's probably what happened as a result of a bfriend


Homeless Guy and Purse

My cellphone rang yesterday around 6 PM. On the caller ID was the number of a friend, M, who just had lost her purse the day before.

Hello, Mam, are you Inda? My name is Terry Brown and I am a homeless person. I found a purse on a dumpster and I am making a call from the cellphone I found inside the purse. I looked at the wallet, and she is a very pretty lady, I just don't want people to use all her credit cards here. There are a wallet full of cards, keys, key to an office building, and a checkbook. Now, I don't know if somebody else had been through it and dump the bag, but I have the rest of it like I said before.

Wow, that's so nice. She told me she just lost the whole thing yesterday. She will be really happy when she finds out about it. I will try to get a hold of her right now, I don't know how since she doesn't have her cellphone now and she's not online. Anyway, I will call you back at this number as soon as I find out more. Where are you located, Sir?

I am at the Shell station by Antoine and HW 290.

Are you going to stay there all night?

Yes, Mam, I am homeless. I sleep during the day and helping around the station all night. Most probably I will stay here the whole night.

OK, sounds great. I will call you soon. By the way, is the battery running out?

No, Mam, it still has the whole bar.

OK, thank you! I'll talk to you soon.

I hung up and I called E, another friend who lives on the same city as M, so that E can relay the message to M. What do I know, E had let M use her cellphone the whole day, so I actually got to tell M first hand about the guy finding her purse in the dumpster. M arranged to pick it up from the gentleman the next morning. What M told me about him restored my hope on humanity.
The End.

Friday, January 04, 2008


my was like an epiphany...

what? what?

tadi malem gue baru, I'm 28...
will I have a family of my own...the biological clock is ticking..the window is getting smaller
asli ketakutan gitu? my goodness

lets put it in perspective you're about to get something VERY few people get... so you had to sacrifice something else

I's just it was never this real before...

And you're only 28... lots of people get married in their 30s the bio clock is long from expiring

who knows I might get an early menopouse (I'm sometime paranoid)


trus di Golden Girls..the episode was about artificial insemination
will I be reduced to that? LOL

ha ha what if a plane drops on ur head...what if what if

yeah, I know...
kemaren aja di Rec...kan basketball rim-nya di geret ke atas gitu because the gym is under renovation, jadi semua alat dipindahin ke lap basket...and I was working out and I looked up, langsung ngeri gitu gimana kalo ketimpa besi dua ton...

ha ha

and the worst was the other night when I was about to withdraw a larger sum of money from the ATM, and there was this black guy on the bike with his hoody up suddenly making a turn and waited in line for me to finish my withdrawal...and this was Northgate...I prejudiced as well as being a paranoid

ha ha

well you know...with the Katrina victims still around...and you should read the police reports nowadays (Federal Clery Act)
CS aint that safe anymore

i know...i always lock the door when a suspicious looking black dude gets near