Saturday, March 10, 2007

Suicide is Painless

Hey, is actually possible to be working, having fun, and getting entertained at almost the same time span, on a weekend no less. Take tonight for instance, I was working on finishing the manuscript while chatting with four of my favorite guys (minus you, T, where are you these days anyway?) and one special girl who takes in an anti-social mood for the weekend. The entertainment part was from watching two episodes of M*A*S*H. That series rock. Not trying to diminish the potential of a suicidal me, but the above title actually refers to the theme of the said series. Thanks, B, for pointing out the title.

And to think that just a few hours before, I was feeling particularly depressed thinking about this...(typed it from memory as I don't have the chat history handy)...I was making a joke out of the situation but it went back to hit me in the head.

dulu ya Bu, saya bangga dengan kesendirian saya
tapi lama-lama mikir...ini kan sendirinya bukan by choice default

One hour of solid working out did pay off. I got the endorphine running and in no time was back to the positive me.

...the lyrics to SiP

Through early morning fog I see
visions of the things to be
the pains that are withheld for me
I realize and I can see...

that suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
and I can take or leave it if I please.

The game of life is hard to play
I'm gonna lose it anyway
The losing card I'll someday lay
so this is all I have to say.


The sword of time will pierce our skins
It doesn't hurt when it begins
But as it works its way on in

The pain grows it grin, but...


A brave man once requested me
to answer questions that are key
is it to be or not to be

and I replied 'oh why ask me?'


...and you can do the same thing if you please.

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